Oh the insanity

So I'm reading that it takes up to a year for your hormones to balance out after giving birth. I'm insane, I really fell sorry for Daddy Mac, he never knows who is is waking up next to. I'm a complete different personality everyday. Its enough to drive myself crazy. The only thing that stays constant is my love for iMac. That will never change.
The worst part of it all is that Riley is incredibly protective of me and iMac, now I know most of you are asking what's new....well he barks constantly when its just the 3 of us to the point that I wish he would just loose his voice. Sometimes I cry because I miss Shelby and maybe I should have given Riley up instead. I would never say that out loud to anyone. Shelby is in good home with a fenced in yard, I know I did the right thing for her. But she was quiet. Oh well.
My vet wants me to take Riley to a shrink. I don't have the money for that and I don't think there is anything new they will tell me. I wish I could just have his meds adjusted. Maybe when we move, we;ll get a new vet and then we can see what they say.

Now for the part of the blog that everyone has been waiting for...iMac will be 4 months old this Sunday. He rolls and seems to be enjoying his toys. He is teething pretty bad so everything goes in the mouth. He love music and seems to have favorite songs. There is just one thing that bothers me....I feel really bad that he just stairs at the back of the seat in the car. I have toys for him in the car sear but he just seems to zone out and stare at the blackness. I wish there was something more stimulating to look at. I sing and talk to him, but I still feel bad that he is there alone, with nothing to look at.