still crying

I have been back to work from almost 2 months and I still cry on the days that I have to go into the office. He is 3 months old so he is started to grab things and smile learn cause and affect so things are getting interesting and he seems like he is doing somthing new everyday. I hate that my MIL gets to experience it all. I wish that I didn't have to work. It breaks my heart knowing that I can't be with him all day. I know that he doesn't miss me, he is such a social, chatter bug so I'm sure he enjoys his time with grammy but I really don't want to share him.

Today Daddy Mac is home with him. I so wanted to work from home so I could be with him too. This is the longest that the two have been alone ever! I know that its good for the two of them to spend quality time together and I know that Daddy Mac is taking good care of him but I'm jelous that he has a whole day with iMac.

I have 2 days off next week, I can't wait!! 2 wholes days with my buddy all to myself. I can't wait!!!

Supermom has lost her cape

My allergies are killing me, my sinus infection seems to be getting worse instead of better and my mothing in law cleaned MY bedroom last week because I was intears because the house is a wreck and my husband likes to come home from work and watch video games and watch baseball all the time. I feel like a single mom with 2 soms and a dog. I can't stand the mess and when I should be taking it easy and trying to get better, I'm packing lunches and making bottles and cleaning bottles and folding laundry and trying to keep the kitchen clean because I can't figure out why there are ants everywhere. I'm exhausted!! I feel like I got hit by a mack truck. I want to move me and iMac in with my parents for a week because that sounds like a vacation. I'm so tired of trying to get my husband to help that I cry, CRY to his mother and I think that she is afriad that I will elave and never come back...as if that were really even an option for this good christian girl. I don't know what else to do. When he does clean he throughs everything in the closet or in the trunck of the car. There are 5, yes 5 bags of clothes that need to be dropped off at good will, do you think that he would offer to drop them off for me since I'm busy with the baby when I'm not working or trying to run a house hold NO!! He just keeps putting more stuff in the car. My car that seats 5 comfortable now only has room for me....do we see the problem here? He will never have sex again unless he starts helping and puting things away properly the first time and taking care of himself, I will not allow myself to risk getting pregnant again ever if he is going to be so unhelpful. He only wants to help when its to his benefit. He only wants to spend time with Ian when he Ian is not crying. I don't get out of the house much and when I do I feel like I need to hurry back. I can't even enjoy a glass of wine because I need to be alert and awake to take care of the baby.
Why can't he get up, shower, pack his lunch and help me get the baby ready? WHY IS THAT SO HARD?
Then there is me... why did I think that he would be anymore helpful with a baby than he was with the dogs....maybe because ITS A BABY. What a joke! I married a lazy slob who talks a good game about making changes and never does.
Thanks for letting me rant.

xox

New formula

Well, we finally switched Ian's formula and he is no longer constipated!! WhooHoo! He is still gassy but for the most part, I don't think that it bothers him. He sleeps through the night, 7-7.5 hours. Of course the day after we start celebrating our new and improved baby, he starts teething and is completely miserable of and on throughout the day. The poor baby can't catch a break! Hopefully things settle down again in a few days.
I'm realizing more and more that is great that memoeries don't develope until latter in life. I would hate to remember all the miserable things that happen between birth and when you actually start to remember things.